Trigger Warning: pregnancy loss
I love Fall. Fall is such a tremendously glorious season, the pumpkins, the apples, the change of color, the cool nights and crisp days, I know when my children step onto the school bus that a perfectly lovely time of year is right around the corner.
I cycled through so many emotions with those losses, from anger at my body for failing them, to frustration at my husband for not feeling the emotions as deeply as I did. I read forums, books, articles, it seemed like so many women were in this boat on a sea of unhappiness and loneliness. Seven children, and I still felt that odd quiet at times, that feeling that four more should be there, were here, were as real as they were at one point in time.